Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Feeling blue...
Or should we do the Holly Golightly thing and call it the mean reds?
I don't know if it's the planets in retrograde, the little sniffle of a cold I have, or just what...but I've got the blahs. I should be happy-we played a small benefit in Ruston over the weekend that went very well, and I saw my good friend Heather and we got to kick back and drink tequila and laugh all night...
But I feel sad and heavily burdened. Could be that the school year is kicking in again, but that's just the same old stuff. Maybe that's it-I'm dying of boredom! But it's a job-a pretty decent one, at that. I even got a raise in the middle of the year. What a surprise. What I do now is compensation after paying my dues-sacking groceries, working retail...blah, blah, blah. I have a cool office and lots of downtime between classes.
Work really isn't my problem. I know exactly what the problem is but I can' t seem to do anything about it without taking a really big risk. But then again, maybe that's not the solution either. I'm probably just going through some sort of phase.
I want to finish the book-I'm very close. I want to start looking for publishers. I want the band to do well, and it is. We're practically booked every weekend for the entire month of February. Things could get pretty exciting for us. Maybe someone will see us and we could at least pick up a booking agent. Anything so Don wouldn't have to worry so much. The festival association thing should open up some door for us. I knew it would pick up after the first of the year.
My only concern is being able to do it all and not be worn down too badly. I hate biting off more than I can chew-I've tried not to do it for years because it wears me down terribly.
Anyway, I think we'll still have a good time-it's always fun to play, and even more fun when we don't have to bring PA. In the meantime, I'll try to find time to do some extra writing and I really hope I can get back into my...spiritual interests? If that's what I can call them?
I don't know if it's the planets in retrograde, the little sniffle of a cold I have, or just what...but I've got the blahs. I should be happy-we played a small benefit in Ruston over the weekend that went very well, and I saw my good friend Heather and we got to kick back and drink tequila and laugh all night...
But I feel sad and heavily burdened. Could be that the school year is kicking in again, but that's just the same old stuff. Maybe that's it-I'm dying of boredom! But it's a job-a pretty decent one, at that. I even got a raise in the middle of the year. What a surprise. What I do now is compensation after paying my dues-sacking groceries, working retail...blah, blah, blah. I have a cool office and lots of downtime between classes.
Work really isn't my problem. I know exactly what the problem is but I can' t seem to do anything about it without taking a really big risk. But then again, maybe that's not the solution either. I'm probably just going through some sort of phase.
I want to finish the book-I'm very close. I want to start looking for publishers. I want the band to do well, and it is. We're practically booked every weekend for the entire month of February. Things could get pretty exciting for us. Maybe someone will see us and we could at least pick up a booking agent. Anything so Don wouldn't have to worry so much. The festival association thing should open up some door for us. I knew it would pick up after the first of the year.
My only concern is being able to do it all and not be worn down too badly. I hate biting off more than I can chew-I've tried not to do it for years because it wears me down terribly.
Anyway, I think we'll still have a good time-it's always fun to play, and even more fun when we don't have to bring PA. In the meantime, I'll try to find time to do some extra writing and I really hope I can get back into my...spiritual interests? If that's what I can call them?
// posted by LJo @ 11:56 AM 
